FALLING IN LOVE

Oh wow! The title may seems a little controversial. Well, I'm not specifically talking about myself since currently I am way far from the falling in love stage. I don't even plan on falling in love for these few years to come (but who knows kan?). 

I had failed in love once before, and there are so many lessons I've learned from the failure. I may seem to be maturer than how I look, but honestly I am an amateur in love-ship. I can advise people on how to handle their love problems but me  myself had done the same mistakes over and over again that it finally brought down the efforts in my past relationship.

Have I ever had any regret from the loss? Of course I had. I always thought "If only I could turn back the time to where we were 2 years before 'that' happened.' 'If only I could reset my mind and my memory for knowing and loving him' and 'If only we didn't even meet;. But the regret brought me nothing. It took months for me to regain my strength and to be calm over that matter. Alhamdulillah, me and the 'man' are still friends (best-friend) until today. We agreed not to hate each other and put everything behind us. Let Allah decides everything. We tried and we failed. But there's nothing impossible to happen. 

Sometimes, I do ask myself. 'What if he find another love before I find one myself?' It makes me want to stop befriending him, and just walk away from his life; turn everything to ZERO. But my heart keep saying 'How long can I hide or run?'. What if one day, after years of running and hiding..we are fated to meet under the most awkward moment. Maybe he'll be my bro-in-law (who knows kan?). Maybe I'll be marrying his best friend. 

Thus, I decided to be strong and be prepared for anything to come in the future. If we are meant to be together, Alhamdulillah! Since we already knew each other for years. But if we are meant for someone other, also Alhamdulillah! Because we still have the ability to love and to be loved. 

But one thing for sure, I will not be a love hunter anymore. I'll wait for the moment to come. 

I have heard this phrases somewhere:

"When we admire someone, do not tell him/her. It may lessen the feeling we have. But tell Allah The Greatest because He Knows who is the right one for us. Love secretly but honestly, if the love is True, it will bring us closer to Him. But if the love is nothing but lust and lie, it will drift us away from remembering Him." 

Oh, did I just talk about love? Pfffftt~

  

I AM FROM KOTA TINGGI AND I AM PROUD!

Well, the post title just said what my intention is..hehe. Of course to brag about my one and only hometown; Kota Tinggi. But to be honest, I left Kota Tinggi for 10 years to study..and here I am getting to know my birth place :)

People may only know Kota Tinggi for the Air Terjun or the Makam Sultan, but I would like to share  MORE! Hehe~ 

Yesterday, my Sis's Mom-in-law just got back from performing her Umrah. Thus, of course the villagers were coming to the house for a visit. We did not have the time to buy 'barang2 masak' so my Sis just bought Chicken Rice from a nearby restaurant. The cost was RM 25. Try to guess how many people ate the Chicken Rice? Uhum..it was for serving of 6 adults and 5 kids! The taste was even satisfactory!  Oh..not to forget, all of us ate the normal amount of rice (xdak la nasik separuh ka, nasik suku ka).

And this morning (I mean yesterday morning), me and my Sis went to the town for some shopping (hehe). I was sooo excited! My Sis brought me to a 'Pasar Borong'  in Tai Hong (an area in Kota Tinggi). The place is actually very famous not to only the locals but also the outsiders! I saw many 'foreign' (from outside Johor) cars parked there. We arrived at 12 noon and the market was still very crowded and happening with shouts everywhere. 

Our first stop was a bundle sale. My Sis bought two adorable new baby wears (we could tell it's new from the colour and the condition) for RM2 each. Then at another 'pit-stop' my Sis spent about RM140 for  a pair of jeans and six blouses; all are new with price-tags attached. And of course the quality is good too! We walked around hastily since the weather is getting hotter. Our final 'pit-stop' was a scarf sale. I never believe in buying cheap 'tudung sarung' since the awnings are always 'patah2' or 'lekuk2' (girls do understance this right?). But, today my impression was changed! My Sis bought 2 scarfs for RM15 and those two are perfect! 

Uh-oh..I think that's it for the 'sharing' session! Hehe..

Oh yeah..last week I did some baking!

I only managed to take the picture of the bred before it went into the oven..haha

  

CURRENT FEELING

I raised my right hand up and I put up all five fingers, then I put down my pinkie, then my ring finger..lastly my middle finger. I left the other two fingers up and brought them on my forehead.

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